Hushed whispers and unspoken words...

2010-10-21T02:53:00.000-07:00

When i was five, my mother told me that happiness is the key to life.

When i went to school, they gave me an assignment about what i wanted to be when i grow up.

I answered "Happy"

They said i didnt understand the assignment. I told them they didnt understand life.

random update

2010-08-20T08:09:00.000-07:00

Joke:

My friend texted me asking what is IDK..

I texted her back saying "I Dont Know"

Then not long after that i received a text saying "Omg nobody knows".

Lol

on and on.

2010-08-02T01:44:00.000-07:00

I know i have abandoned the blog for...very very very longgg...

Anyways, life's been bitchin..

And it goes on and on and on..

Btw, today's a monday...

Only 4 more days to go.

Before its saturday again :D

trip.

2010-06-06T18:43:00.000-07:00

Went on a disasterous trip to Bau last saturday..

*Shudders*

We were stuck at some unknown place, our bus fell into a ditch..

We waited for more than an hour for the lorry that was supposed to pull up the bus..

It didnt managed to and just drove off =.=

Then the manager of the bus company came to inspect his bus and scolded the bus driver withour even caring about the condition of the kids..

It was raining heavily and only celcom lines could work..

It was like being stranded on some deserted place, cold and dirty..

Moral of the story: Never go to places you do not know beforehand. SHEESH

i wonder..

2010-06-02T21:36:00.000-07:00

I wonder..

Is it more painful to know that something bad is awaiting you behind that closed door, or spend a lifetime wondering what to expect?

Is it more torturous to be surrounded by people you loath or be the lone being alive?

Is it worse to know when you're going to die or await and dread that very day, not knowing when it will be?

Is it better to know all the thoughts of people around you, good and bad, or rather not know them, but wonder everyday what people think of you?

Is it better to lash out and express your anger and risk quarreling, or bottling your emotions up and swallowing them in?

Is it more painful to love and be hurt, scarred for life, or never finding true love and living happily?

Is it easier to be pretty but hated or ugly but not drawing envy from others?

Is it enough to just be me, or be the person everyone wants me to be?

Just some random thoughts and unanswered questions..

cherub.

2010-05-30T21:57:00.000-07:00

Anyways, so long since i updated..

Exams have passed..

Life's good so far.

Addicted to the CHERUB series..

Story book about a group of kids spies.

Its weird but i kinda miss exams. HAHA.

grew up.

2010-04-23T21:21:00.001-07:00

These few days, i grew up.

To know people around me better.

And to know what i should do from now on.

moot.

2010-04-11T02:39:00.000-07:00

So Green Road did not win the mooting competition...

Its kinda disappointing though...

We forgot to hand in our summary to the judge and went "oh shit" simultaneously when we saw our opponents hand in theirs...

Anyways, at least there was nice food during the dinner..

and, something random...

I find that being silent, we hear alot better =]

screwed up

2010-04-08T03:24:00.000-07:00

You taught me more about the world..

Because you're the perfect example of how screwed up the world can be

happy Easter =]

2010-04-04T05:48:00.000-07:00

Today's Easter..

Didnt eat any Easter eggs though..

I did eat two half boiled eggs this morning, but i guess that doesnt count..

Went to Ta Kiong in search of those yummy choc ones but couldnt find any T.T

Anyways, remember how Jesus died for us and rose again.

Thanks to Him, i am who i am today and eternally saved from damnation =]

2010-03-28T00:01:00.000-07:00

I submit that im too busy to update =p

2010-03-23T02:34:00.000-07:00

And my results are unexpectedly okay.

Thank you God =D

LOL.

2010-03-23T02:29:00.000-07:00

I dont mean to sound emo or anything, but sometimes, i just feel pretty lonely..

I mean, everyone is supposed to have someone special in their life who stands by them no matter what right??

Or does stuff like that only appear in fiction and movies?

I mean, Harry Potter has Ron and Hermione..

House have Wilson and Cuddy xp

And Blair has Serena. At least sometimes she does =p

Those special people are the ones who are supposed to support you, never back stab you and hold your hands through the mess you made of your life.

Somehow, i still feel that special someone is missing in my life.

And it is depressing when you read novel after novel about those cheesy friendships.

Do they exist anyway?

congrats ppl =]

2010-03-11T18:28:00.000-08:00

SPM results was just released yesterday..

Congrats to those who got good results..

I bet our headmaster must be smiling in his dreams. Haha...

As more pressure is piled up upon me, i wonder if i can really live up to everybody's expectation. And my own as well..

Straight A+ aint easy...

Life's gona be getting tough soon.

a little.

2010-03-05T06:56:00.000-08:00

There's a little truth behind every just kidding.

A little curiosity behind every just wondering.

A little knowledge behind every i dont know.

A little emotion behind every i dont care.

blondes

2010-02-26T06:52:00.000-08:00

So i have this joke i saw somewhere about dumb blondes.

A blonde goes to best buy.

Blonde: Can i buy this tv?

Employee: No i dont sell to blondes.

Blonde goes and dyes her hair brown.

Blonde goes back to best buy.

Blonde: Can i buy this tv?

Employee: No i dont sell to blondes.

Blonde: How did you know i am blonde????

Employee: Maam, thats a microwave.

LOL

selfish

2010-02-26T06:31:00.000-08:00

Sometimes im afraid i'd hurt your feelings..

But yet im selfish..

Im torn between decisions. Unmade. Waiting for me to confront them..

Maybe thats why i sleep alot. To escape reality.

If you promised me it wouldnt hurt, it wouldnt be so hard,

Promise me then. Will you?

pimple

2010-02-25T03:52:00.000-08:00

I have a pimple below my nose..

It hurts when i blow my nose or rub it or accidentally scratch it..

LoL.

Like 4 people noticed it and went "Hey, you have a pimple there" *points*

Sheesh xD

Anyways exams are coming up...

God give me determination and the drive to study...

quotes xp

2010-02-18T05:18:00.000-08:00

Just some random quotes i find nice xp

CNY

2010-02-16T18:24:00.000-08:00

Hmm..

So this has been an ok-ok Chinese New Year..

Didnt play much firecrackers...

Got less angpaos...

But spent more family time...

CANTWAIT for our group visiting. lol.

Happy CNY n VdaY =p

2010-02-14T04:39:00.000-08:00

Sometimes there's so much going on in my head that i want to explode...

I doubt my sanity. Seriously.

And then again there's no one to listen.

Nobody will get it.

By the way, Happy Chinese New Year *rawr* and Happy Valentines Day =)

wheeee..

2010-02-12T23:07:00.000-08:00

Few more hours before the fireworks begin...

WHHEEEE =p

thanks.

2010-02-11T20:48:00.001-08:00

Chinese New Year is coming in like two days..

WHEE =D

And thanks to someone sweet for the gifts.

XoXo to you =p

its true

2010-02-07T01:38:00.000-08:00

When you say mean stuff, it actually hurts.

I mean, you know me all too well, all the best things to do.

As they say, a hard blow wont hurt as much as a well aimed one..

Its true.

cant wait cant wait.

2010-02-01T04:31:00.000-08:00

I cant wait for Chinese New Year.

Sleeping in and great food.

Cant ask for more than that =)

miss u.

2010-01-29T06:12:00.000-08:00

Can i say that i dont regret anything but yet want to change part of the past?

Can i say that i cant stand you but yet i miss you?

I do, you know.

Maybe not you, but who you were..

school sucks.

2010-01-24T05:18:00.000-08:00

I wonder how the excitement and anticipation of going to school and meet my friends that i used to have as a kid has now turned into dread.

tell me.

2010-01-21T03:52:00.000-08:00

How far can you walk before you're willing to admit you're lost?

How much can you do wrong before you seek help?

How much can it hurt before you let it show?

How hard must you try to keep you composure before you break down?

How much must you do before you can finally be happy again?

Tell me.

5

2010-01-02T23:01:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow i shall be in form five.

I shall be in form five tomorrow.

Shudders.

2010 here i come.

2010-01-01T05:49:00.000-08:00

The first day of 2010 came too fast..

2009 has been a blur, passing by too fast..

I feel like i havent even managed to achieve anything the whole year long and before i know it, the year is over...

2009

i fell in love

i did NOT flunk add maths xp

i went crazy over lee minho and taylor lautner (who is now single?? =p)

i gained weight =s

i got addicted to facebook

i went to kl to debate xp

i surprised myself in public speaking

i gained some, lost some

i learnt more about myself but got confused as well

i lost part of myself being hurt and disappointed

i met more irritating teachers. urgg..

i camwhored more =p

Merry Christmas

2009-12-25T06:13:00.001-08:00

Wishing everyone a Merry Christmas...

Let's not forget to celebrate the day hope was given to mankind =D

thief.

2009-12-17T08:21:00.001-08:00

Sometimes i wonder why you had to snatch everything i have away from me.

Right from the beginning up till the end.

elastic.

2009-12-15T07:10:00.000-08:00

You and me, we're like an elastic band...

We were meant to be pulled apart..

But yet, our properties enable us to spring back into shape..

Like nothing has happened before..

At least not until we reach our elastic limit..

bye

2009-12-13T18:56:00.001-08:00

Gona go off to Penang/Taiping later...

Looking forward to nice food and nice shopping xp...

Will miss the peeps back home...

But at least i can still text =)

Love y'all

<3

freeze

2009-12-11T19:30:00.000-08:00

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I dread form five...

No more lazing around all day..

No more sleeping in...

No more escaping from textbooks..

2009-12-04T06:07:00.001-08:00

I just realised how much i like pictures of people holding hands..

Maybe cuz they remind me of you =)

dance.

2009-12-04T05:48:00.000-08:00

I dont know why but i am just born with zero dancing talent..

Not only am i not flexible at all, i have bad coordination and cant remember the steps...

So freaking frustrating.

P.s. Thanks to a certain darling for the wonderful gifts =p

bugger.

2009-11-27T06:41:00.001-08:00

Down with the usual flu/cough/sorethroat bug...

Feel pretty much like im drowning in my own lungs...

HELP.

hate.

2009-11-25T03:47:00.000-08:00

You know how people say that liking someone makes you moon over them and you're unable to forget that person no matter day or night?

That the moments made with that person is encarved unto your heart and one glance at that person brings back those memories?

Well, love may be a strong emotion, but not undefeated as well..

I rather think hate leaves a bigger impact on me...

Hate is actually rather similar to love in the way that it involves people as well and memories created with that certain person, though the memories may not be sweet...

Ironic as it seems, people tend to remember what is unpleasant to remember more easily than the nice things and simple wonders of life..

When we are in love, we tend to moon over a certain someone, their features, the way they act, the way they walk and carry themselves and the moments we have spent together, what they said to us etc.

Well, when we hate someone, isnt all this what we remember as well? What a certain person said that triggered our anger, how the way thay act makes us wanna scold *%#$^#% and how pissed we are when their faces keeps popping out uncontrollably in our mind, whether we like it or not.

Doesnt all those sound pretty familiar? You cant stop thinking about them either. And one look of them brings waves of emotion, though not love, but hate..

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Fear~

Sometimes when i think of people i loathe, i start to get worried...

What if i die tonight, hating them, i would probably go to hell..

Wouldnt that be worse? Eternal pain and suffering? But yet it aint easy to bring ourselves to forget those acts that have once broke our hearts and wounded us.

I once watched a video/movie during a YCS movie session..

It was about a good pastor who had an argument with his wife and refused to talk to her for a few days. However, before he could forgive her, he "passed away" and was actually taken by an angel to visit heaven and hell.

In Heaven, he was shown the beautiful place God created for His people. But that place was very bare, considering the number of people who actually truly repents.

In hell, it was much more crowded and everyone seem caught up in their own personal suffering. It was truly painful to watch. The climax occured when the angel told the pastor that was the place he was meant to go if he really died, for although he asked God to forgive his sins, he could not bring himself to forgive another. He was then allowed to live again after 3 days to proclaim this to us, as i now share..

That is when it hit me that any moment, God can decide my time is up and i can never truly forgive those who hurt me before, and indirectly buy my one way non-refundable ticket to hell..

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Healing~

One day, there was this priest who came to celebrate mass with us..

He shared his own personal story how his close friend had betrayed him and he pretty much hated her for it. Everytime he saw her he would feel anger and hatred bubbling in him.

As much as he tried to forgive her, he couldnt. For one glance of her would bring everything back.

He then shared that forgiveness comes not from men, but from God. We cant forgive people without asking God to give us that power.

Every night, he would pray for the person he hated what he wanted for himself and he was supposed to do this for 30 days.

However empty his prayer was, he continued praying and after 20 plus days, he started to mean the prayer and eventually his anger was long gone..

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I should probably start doing this.

Who know, i might drop dead tomorrow.

Or maybe not.

Not before i drool over Taylor Lautner's hot bod xp

pieces

2009-11-24T04:59:00.000-08:00

I despise people who don't keep their words and promises..

Who ignores the way i feel and hurt my feelings..

Sometimes, dont we get to carried away with our own needs till we tend to overlook the needs of others?

Or is it the ignorance and couldnt care less attitude that makes us hurt the people around us?

There are many ways to hurt a person, but once hurt, even if the wounds heal, there'll always be scars left.

If there's someone out there who can tell me the answer to this, please do.

How can i love a person with my whole haart if there are so many broken pieces yet to be found?

taylor.

2009-11-21T07:12:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i kinda miss studying...

Its pretty nuts, in a way...

And i miss crying over mushy, unrealistic but unbelievably romantic scenes in dramas..

After watching so many korean dramas, my fave scene is when the hero *must be hot* wears a necklace for the girl. *Swoons*

Have been playing alot of rock riot recently. Sad to say, my coordination STILL sucks. Haha.

Cant wait for New Moon..

And yummy Taylor Lautner.

Look at that abs, people...

*Faints*

chess =p

2009-11-14T01:59:00.000-08:00

I think love is somewhat like a game of chess (which i just started playing lately =p)

If you attack too much, you end up sacrificing alot unnecessarily.

A defence too strong, you get nowhere.

Once your king is dead, you hear the word "checkmate".

And that is when it falls apart.

me.

2009-11-06T18:51:00.000-08:00

Form four is almost over. time flies, whether or not you're having fun.

Im still pretty confused about what i want to do after form five...

Im still immature and naive..

Still waiting for miracles to happen..

I guess that's life for me...

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I miss beautiful sunsets, starry skies, beautiful poems, autumn, blooming flowers...

quick update

2009-10-30T07:03:00.000-07:00

Exam's finally over =)

Im so high...

Haha...

And tough luckt o those SPM-ers...

All the best studying =p

P.s. I miss you.

again.

2009-09-28T23:21:00.000-07:00

You let me down

Once again.

sometimes

2009-09-24T03:53:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i feel happy
Sometimes i feel sad
Sometimes im just so jealous of what others have.
Sometimes im confused
Sometimes i sure
Sometimes i have no idea what to do
Sometimes its all about me
Sometimes its all about you
Sometimes i dont even know how to feel
Sometimes i want to cry
Sometimes i cant stop smiling
Sometimes i feel the whole world cant stop spinning
Sometimes i am winning
Sometimes i am losing
Sometimes my world is just sinking
Sometimes i have so much to share
Sometimes i just cant find the right words to say
Sometimes i wish it would rain
Sometimes i love the warm sun
Sometimes i love all i have
Sometimes i resent my life
Sometimes i just wish i actually know what im saying.
LOL

you =)

2009-09-18T19:21:00.000-07:00

You're like my favourite pair of shoes
Making my journey in life ever so smooth
Giving me strength to face reality and its cruel truths

You're like my favourite song
Playing on and on
Keeping the rhythm of my heartbeat steady and strong

You're like my cosy comforter
Embracing me in warmth when it gets colder
Soothing my chills and shivers

You're like my favourite colour
Painting our memories in sheer splendour
Etching them onto my heart forever

You're like my favourite story
Weaving my dreams with reality
Unleashing hope and setting me free

You're like my favourite fragrance
Each whiff carrying a million scents
Making me dance and spin in trance

You're like a cup of coffee
Got me addicted to you so easily
Intoxicated by you, never again free

You're like the stars at night
Each one aflame with love so bright
Your radiance of affection being my light

You're like the world to me
For without you, it would be impossible to see
How much someone can ever be
To me.

2009-09-17T19:11:00.000-07:00

I want to go back to those moments =)

something

2009-09-13T03:03:00.001-07:00

If it were to end today, would we have any regrets?

If i were to walk away, would be promise not to be sad?

If i am loss for words to say, know that there was a time we had,
where nothing else mattered but those cherished moments.

I pray, that i'll never forget the memories of all that we shared.

Ever.

Kiss Me

2009-09-07T05:50:00.000-07:00

Kiss Me

Out of the bearded barley,

Nightly, beside the green green grass.

Swing, swing, swing the spinning step,

You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight,

Lead me out on the moonlit floor.

Lift your open hand,

Strike up the band and make the fire flies dance,

Silver moon's sparkling,

so kiss me.

Kiss me down by the broken tree house,

Swing me upon it's hanging tire.

Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat,

We'll take the trail marked on your father's map.

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight,

Lead me out on the moonlit floor.

Lift your open hand,

Strike up the band and make the fire flies dance,

Silver moon's sparkling, so kiss me.

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight,

Lead me out on the moonlit floor.

Lift your open hand,

Strike up the band and make the fire flies dance,

Silver moon's sparkling,

So kiss me.

Now kiss me

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la

2009-09-06T04:56:00.000-07:00

Its funny how i want something so much but when i get it i dont appreciate it and hold on tight..

Maybe it have to slip away before i realise i cant live without it..

Then when its too late, crying is all i can do..

Hopefully my tears is salty enough to float me through my mess.

revenge!!

2009-09-05T03:55:00.000-07:00

Daddy in making!!!

2009-08-31T00:14:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i think

Even if we're not right for each other

We make the most perfect misfit.

Devon Knows How They Make Hannah So Creamy

2009-08-30T23:53:00.000-07:00

Tagged by Joshua =p

Go to: http://thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi

Put your name in, and generate slogan after each question.

Tag 20 people including me.

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?

Just One Hannah-Give It To Me

2. What do you want other people to say about you?

Puts the Hannah in Britain. lol

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is…

The Too Good to Hurry Hannah

4. How would you answer a booty call?

The Ultimate Hannah Machine. this is hawt. whoo~

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?

Savour the Flavour of Hannah. XP

6. To someone you dislike?

This is the Age of Hannah. muahaha, this suits the situation =p

7. You’re in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?

Every Hannah Helps. =.="

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say…

Poppin' Fresh Hannah

9. You’re failing a subject, you say…

Fast Hannah and Good for You

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?

Once Driven , Forever Hannah. =o

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her…

Make Fun of Hannah

12. Someone told you you’re an asshole, you tell them…

Absolut Hannah. right on, baby =D

13. What are the best words to describe you?

Its a New Hannah Everyday. TRUE!!!

14. If you’re going to have a movie about your life, the title is…

Fall into the Hannah. yes, im like a black hole that'll suck y'all in xp

15. Your last words before you die…

Today's Hannah, since 1903

16. Your message to a special someone..

For a Hard-earned Thrist, Hannah. i know u thrist for me, baby. lol.

17. Title of this post will be…

Devon Knows How They Make Hannah So Creamy

I shall tag:

1. joshua

2. Edward Lim

3. Evon

4. Yolande

5. Sam sii

6. Bang

7. Lilian Lau

8. ida *if u see this xp*

9. DJ

10. whoever who wana do it =p

taking stuff for granted

2009-08-30T06:38:00.000-07:00

Lately, i realised how much i have been taking things for granted...

Even simple stuff, like the rain, having a handphone that actually works, not heving severe acne, having electricity at home and insignificant stuff like that...

We expect those stuff to be always there, but we do not realise how many people out there actually do not even have the opportunity to enjoy these simple pleasures of life...

Stuff like one zit on your forehead, not getting your favourite dish at dinner or not being able to watch your desired programme on tv, all these gets us all worked up and agitated...

But we have never considered the possibilities, or how is it like if we don't have all of these..

I have a teacher who taught me in lower primary school whor ecently died of cancer, a close family friend who was just diagnosed with cancer, a dear grandfather who died of heart problem..

These are people who have touched my life but went to heaven just at a snap of a finger..

Imagine how all those closest to them hurt at their lose, having their dearest taken away...

Would petty things like someone not replying their text be of any significance? Or having their book folded at the edges, would that drive them ballistic as it does to me?

I would think all those hardly matters to them anymore..

And having family and friends around me..

That is something not every person would have. People who care for them, who matters, who gives a damn..

I feel that lately i havent been thanking God enough for all He has given me, showering me with blessings that i dont deserve...

Things like good health a caring family and nice friends shouldnt be taken for granted, but given thanks for..

Its at times when we suffer that we realise how lucky we were..

When we are heartbroken, we feel thankful for the happy moments.
When we are sick, we appreciate good health..
When we are disappointed, we are thankful for our past successes.

Therefore, i wana give thanks to God, with a grateful heart =)

building us

2009-08-26T08:26:00.001-07:00

I hurt you and hurt myself

Maybe that's where i find comfort?

Or reassurance?

I have no idea..

Sounds wrong, i know.

Sometimes i wonder why people who are so so close fall apart..

Maybe relationships are built like towers made of colourful blocks...

You stack them neatly and tidily, one on top of another, each one earning its place as part of the tower as memories or part of each other, each with its own unique colour, holding something significant that both persons share...

At first everything seem so sturdy, firm, reassuring, safe...

As it builds up it starts to become unstable, swaying with strong wind that blows, giving that little hint that it may not stand strong forever..

When we quarrel or argue, we pull out the blocks that represent those memories that have hurt or disappointed us the most, some from the top, some from the base, making it far more unsteady..

Now even the slightest breeze may rock our carefully built tower, threatening to crumble it...

And you and i, we sit beside that tower, praying and crossing our fingers that it wouldn't tumble..

It probably will eventually, but maybe, we hope, it would crumble when all the blocks are faded and worn out, with their colours all looking washed out..

And we know that its time to let that tower crumble, and build a new one.

Bigger, Taller, Stronger than ever.

Hols

2009-08-23T07:13:00.000-07:00

Here comes the holidays..

Haha...

I didnt get to go to KL but i get to sleep in most of the time and no one cares..

Im so HIGH..

And i just finished watching Boys Over Flowers..

Finally.

And still crazzziiieeee over Gu Joon Pyo XP

happy hols everyone =D

nobody can see us

2009-08-08T08:12:00.000-07:00

twirl me around at sundown

lets take a spin

just you and me

curl your fingers around mine

as we take down the city

kiss me under the city lights

with stars above shining bright

and we'll link hands and run around

catching the depth of darkness

nobody can see us

just us apart from the world

together.

Help

2009-07-31T07:30:00.000-07:00

You know the feeling when you want to let everything out?

You just want to run away from all your problems and worries, be free...

But yet, there's this part in you that's so damn scared that you'll lose it all..

That you'll have nothing left, be all alone, desolate..

If that happens, who's to blame but yourself..

No longer will you have a place to lean on, to support you and your heavy ass, full of problems..

And by then, regrets will be redundant..

For you know your ego is too big to beg for a second chance, even if your soul is screaming for that...

With that bit of fear, i shall never know whether that step is right or wrong.

For i cant even set out my foot.

Help.

thanks

2009-07-19T03:38:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Zheng Yang, who fed me an incredible dinner last night

Happy Birthday..

Today you're officially 16... =D

Thanks to my friends, who make my life so fun..

Thanks to the clouds for shielding us while we were standing like statues under the hot sun...

Thanks to God for all my victories...

The public speaking competitions and our sports day march pass..

Thanks to Allan, for giving me a rare opportunity to do that...

You know, i know xp

Thanks to J.K. Rowling for writing Harry Potter =p

Thanks to you, for loving me...

Thanks everyone.

would u?

2009-07-05T03:39:00.000-07:00

If i cry, would you wipe away the tears?

If i fall down, would you be there to catch me?

If i run, would you chase me?

If i am not who you think i am, would you still love me?

oh...

2009-06-27T04:41:00.000-07:00

And i thought you actually gave a damn

When you said

"You have beautiful eyes"

ranDomness

2009-06-27T03:32:00.000-07:00

Success is like an obsession
Once you taste victory, you cant seem to stop craving for more
Collecting each success like trophies and prizes
Though the only one that deserves credit is God

Crying is like drugs
Once you start you never want to stop
Cuz it gives you a sort of high that brings waves of calmness and serenity
At least for that moment
You can completely lose yourself
Creating a hardcore addiction

Love and dreams are like never ending temptations
Giving you fantasies so beautiful and magical
Beckoning you to approach
Then crushing you
Weighing your soul with disappointment and despair

Nightmare

2009-06-20T20:56:00.000-07:00

This week is going to be a nightmare.

Literally.

I'm missing last week now.

I want to turn back time..

just a lil something

2009-06-19T07:05:00.000-07:00

When you wrap your arms around me
A cuddly feeling emerges
And i am encaptured by the moment
Unable to pull myself away
From the cosiness within
The hold of your arms

I can feel the warmth
Radiating from your body to mine
And the gentle rhythm of your heartbeat
Even, steady, right next to me
So we are perfectly synchronized
Two bodies
One soul

Pull me closer, love
Hug me tight and never let go
Because deep in me, i know
Right next to you
Is where i belong

To you both =D

2009-06-06T07:54:00.001-07:00

My texting buddies...

You and euu =D

Know that i shall miss u guys loads...

Sobs...

<3>

P.s. Sorry the people in the picture are both gurls xp

How much?

2009-06-05T08:23:00.001-07:00

How much can you miss somebody?

Somebody who's like oxygen to you...

Somebody who is somehow a part of your everyday life..

I think im about to find the answer.

Soon.

If i survive.

paTh

2009-06-04T05:08:00.000-07:00

Four footprints imprinted

Two hands linked

One path to walk

One dream to reach

You and I

Interesting...

2009-05-31T01:24:00.000-07:00

What a guy really means when he says certain things:

"It's a guy thing" = There's nothing really behind the saying except you'll have no chance of making it logical.

"That's very interesting honey" = Damn, are you still talking?

"I'm not lost, I'm a human GPS" = We'll probably never see the real world again.

"You know I only love you" = I'm finally used to the yelling and screaming, so I give up.

"You look great!" = Please don't try on another dress or else I'll kill myself.

"That was an amazing movie" = Everything blew up, had tons of beautiful women and super hot cars.

"Oh man I cut myself. It's not a big deal, I'll be okay" = I will never let her know I'm slowly dying inside from severed arteries.

"Why do you work so hard? Take a break." = The vacuum is preventing me from listening to what the commentators on ESPN are saying.

"I always forget things, you know how it is" = I remember my first kiss, my first GF, the score of the first arcade game I ever played but can't remember your birthday.

"I'm really tired today" = You didn't want to put out the last few days, so I took care of my own business. What a guy really means when he says certain things:

This is funny xp

What girls say/do and what they actually mean...
FINE
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

FIVE MINUTES
If she is getting dressed, this is half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given 5 more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

NOTHING
This is the calm before the storm. This means "something," and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with 'Nothing' usually end in "Fine"

GO AHEAD
This is a dare, not permission. Don't do it.

LOUD SIGH
This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing"

THAT'S OKAY
This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to aman. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

THANKS
A woman is thanking you. Do not question it or faint. Just say you're welcome.Oh, and before we forget ...

"Whatever"...it's a woman's way of saying *!#@ YOU!

So true!!!

BuSy BuSy

2009-05-31T01:01:00.000-07:00

Going to be very busy this hols...

So many activities lined up....

Camps, visits and drill practices...

I feel like this isnt the holidays at all...

Anyways, happy hols everyone...

=D

Frenzy

2009-05-09T05:48:00.000-07:00

I'm so stressed zits are popping on my forehead like nobody's business...

It's so annoying

Not to mention freaking fugly...

It's going to be like this soon...

Just without the hot eyes...

Lolx...

The past few days have been all about al-Attas and Asma binti Abu Bakar...

Thanks very much Sejarah =.="

U can RUN, U can hide but U cant escape my love

2009-05-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

The past two weeks had went by in a frenzy...

It seems hard to imagine how i went through 11 to 12 debates in a short two weeks...

Crazy...

Had fun, been retarded, sung lots (though out of tune xp) and got obsessed with YOU CAN RUN, YOU CAN HIDE, BUT YOU CAN'T ESCAPE MY LOVE =D

Haha...

But coming home is nice...

I miss my bed and my pillows and my softtoys =p

Oh, and by the way...

And i just found a new fact about myself...

In my world, hope comes in pair with disappointment...

Remind me again not to hope, will you?

Miss y'all

2009-04-23T04:28:00.000-07:00

So many emotions running through my mind.

Basically screwing me inside out.

I'm okay. Yet im not.

It's pretty confusing.

Yes, failure is an eye opener. It helps me realise many things.

Maybe my brain cant take it all at once.

Brimming with weirdness and pangs of .... undescribable feelings.

And i miss everyone back at school...

So much.

Love you guys.

And you. <3

=(

2009-04-17T07:30:00.000-07:00

Gosh im so stressed...
And the worse thing is....
I'LL MISS YOU!!!

=(

=x

2009-04-10T20:08:00.000-07:00

When things seems so blue

I know that im truly lucky

to have YOU

Who knew

2009-04-05T05:29:00.000-07:00

One finger could make me topple off the edge
and plunder into darkness and tears

One word could pierce my heart
so hard, so deep

One assumption could have me thinking for hours
why are things the way they are

One gesture could isolate me
from the earth and its inhabitants

One you
could ruin my world

i guess...

2009-04-03T07:41:00.000-07:00

i lost you

cuz i loved him

Save the world?

2009-03-29T03:25:00.000-07:00

I never paid much attention to the environment...

This just sounds so wrong but all these time when i hear about environment issues, the thing that pops into my mind is the cover of geography textbooks and the phrase 'kesan rumah hijau'..

I guess this is the major side effect of learing geography for 3 years and memorizing pages after pages of environmental facts...

Till all this facts just stay in your mind without being registered...

Yesterday the global event earth hour was held worldwide...

Me being a person who couldnt care less went to the website to pledge for the fun of it...

But the minute i went into the website i saw this short video so i clicked and watched it..

That video was short and aimed to tell people to turn off the lights for just that one hour and that everyone CAN make a difference...

At that moment everything seems to rush back to me...

Maybe that's the way God touches our lives to tell us the part we should play to save our environment...

I'm not sure myself...

But maybe from now on i might pay more attention to those lights i leave on when im not in the room and stuff...

Yeah...

The sky is beautiful

2009-03-27T06:48:00.000-07:00

Have you ever really really looked at the sky?

The pale sky blue, the fluffy clouds and amazing moments during sunset...

I have yet to really see sunrise for i love sleeping in...

But the sky is really beautiful...

And when i feel lonely, i look at the sky and i stand in awe of God's awesome-ness...

Every cloud has such beautiful distinct shapes...

Every shape in turn can tell a story...

And i often imagine behind those clouds the bright light is God, His presence which lights up the world..

And with that i feel that all warm inside, being reminded that He is constantly watching over me...

Admire the sky, feel the love, people =D

he n she

2009-03-22T01:19:00.000-07:00

He: My heart is yours.

She: So is mine yours. You'll look after it, won't you?

He: Of course. I'll keep in in a safe place.

She: Where will that be?

He: I would have kept it in my heart, but since my heart is already with you, i will take yours as mine. Your joy shall always bring laughter to my face, your pain shall bring tears to my eyes. We shall always be one.

She: =D

Hols are over

2009-03-22T00:43:00.000-07:00

Hols is almost over...

In fact its already over....

The 'sien-ness' is coming back....

Tomorrow i would have to wake up early...

Gosh,im dreading that...

But then again at least going to school will make me less anti-social...

Im a loner...

I guess the saying that no man is an island is at least partly wrong...

Say hi to miss island princess...

He

2009-03-18T19:00:00.000-07:00

He was always the one...

The one who was there from the beginning till the end...

The one who could play with my feelings and get away with it...

Cuz everytime i hoped it would be different....

I hoped that he would know how much he meant to me...

I hoped that i would mean as much too...

Even half as much...

That i wouldnt just be there...

Like something insignificant..

A picture in the background...

I wish he would trust me...

Know that i'll be there for him...

I wish he knew i love him...

Though he's not my lover...

He was my best friend.

He is my friend.

random..ness..

2009-03-16T05:22:00.000-07:00

Let your arms be my cradle
that rocks me to sleep at night

Let your eyes be the stars
lighting up my life
when curtains of darkness
falls upon me

Let your voice be a sweet lullaby
crooning away
echoing in the depths of my soul

life is BlAh

2009-03-13T06:36:00.001-07:00

Nowadays i just feel so blahh...

It's like evryday passes just like that...

Too fast... Too... Unfulfilling.

I hardly do anything much anymore...

Everyday comprises of school, homework, sleep, more school the next day...

Furthermore, i have lost my enthusiasm for life...

The randomness, bubbly-ness of talking to anyone and everyone is no longer part of me...

All i feel like doing nowadays is sleep...

Dreaming seems like the best remedy for the cruelness of reality...

Everything i hope for. happiness. satisfaction. love.

They can all be found in my own lala land...

I want to drown everything out.

The noises. The unhappiness. The suffocating reality of life.

Save. Me.

Happy VaLentines Day

2009-02-14T03:58:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentines Day people...

Not only a day about chocolates and roses...

Not only about pink ribbons and red love-shaped balloons...

It's more of a day of sharing our love to our loved ones...

So, i wanna wish all my friends and family a very Happy Valentines Day...

And also to some cutie, lotsa xoxoxoxo =p

Thus, my resolution from now onwards is to try to love as much as possible...

Just like our Lord loves us...

And thanks for the gifts, bestfriend and <3...

=D

P.S. Allan is freaking back!!!
Gosh, he's so romantic... =p

Words. Promises.

2009-02-01T04:57:00.000-08:00

Your words, your promises
Goes a long way
Bringing me through everyday
With hope, reassurance
That you'd make everything you say
A fairytale in reality
For me.

But as the days go by
And i wait and wait
For all to come true
Those words you said
Those promises you made
They replay again and again
In my head
Building a steady rhythm
Of resentment
Solemnly played.

Some words
Should be left unsaid
And maybe promises
Weren't meant to be kept
But sometimes
They're all that is left
To cling on
As i journey down
The road of life.

3 tiny woRds

2009-01-31T06:54:00.000-08:00

There're only 3 tiny words i want to say...

I miss yOu.

A LiL' thaNk yOu

2009-01-30T06:08:00.000-08:00

Thank you God
For all You've done
Even for us unworthy people
You sent down Your son

He lived a life

Full of sorrow

All so His people

Have a better tomorrow

He loved us so much
That He died for us
Tortured and pained
So we could have life

Hanging on the cross
He called out to You
"Forgive Your people, Father,
For they know not what they do."

Through His sufferings
Our sins are forgiven
So we may walk the path
To His kingdom in heaven

happy chiNese New Year

2009-01-26T02:23:00.001-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year people...

=D

Feeling faR from my Lord

2009-01-25T05:47:00.000-08:00

Lately, i have been feeling distant from God...

Life has been good, bad and far too routine-like....

Lesser and lesser time is being allocated to God, and much more to stuff of less significance...

It has became so bad that there are nights that i fall asleep before i say Amen....

Yea, that bad...

I remember how good it felt when the Lord touched me, worked His miracles in my life...

How it felt when i experienced His love for me, the love so great that He died for me...

How nothing else mattered anymore...

How the impossible became possible in His name...

I felt like a child in His arms, knowing that He loves me unconditionally....

But nowadays i rarely feel all that anymore...

It's like i just stumble through life without thanking Him enough, without acknowledging all He has done, and still is doing for me...

I want to go back to the heart of worship, and praise Him like never before...

I want Him to be part of every moment of my life, showing me the rights from the wrongs...

I want to experience His undying love everyday...

And for me to love Him as much...

Jesus, bring me back to Your side, for there is where i want to be...

hoPe

2009-01-24T03:09:00.000-08:00

There are those times where you feel like someone has let you down, or maybe it was you who were letting yourself down, for wanting too much, hoping too hard and expecting miracles.

Sometimes you feel it would be better if you just didnt care, if it mattered nothing to you.

Sometimes deep inside you already know that it isnt going to happen. You already expected the results.

But yet, when it doesnt happen, you feel crushed.

Disappointed.

This happens to me pretty often, as i continue to hope and long for more.

The saying is true - The harder you hope, the harder you fall.

Hope means you continue to desire and long for something, wanting fulfillment of your expectations, even though you know it might or might not happen.

Hope means you doing your part and counting on the others to do theirs in order to have what you want come true.

For me, now, hope is just praying hard and leaving the rest to the Lord.

Maybe this was the way things was meant to be.

And i just have to trust my Father in heaven to make things right.

Hope, people.

Hope

School is tough

2009-01-18T01:43:00.000-08:00

I am soooo busy at school now...

Form 4 is so much different from last year...

I can no longer spend the whole year cutting classes and talking like nobody's business and completely ignoring the teacher talking and yet get good results...

I cant sleep wayyy late at night and sleep in the next day...

I have to deal with tons of homework...

And Add Maths =s

I miss those times...

The times when i could procrastinate and not do all my homework for months at a time...

The times when i could revise a few months of ignored lessons in one night before the exam and yet ace it...

I miss the teachers who are soooo much better than the ones now. Kinder and better at teaching.

I miss all my beloved friends who i am no longer in the same class with....

Where are those days??? Where are those times???

Bring them back...

=(

Pouring. From my heart.

2009-01-11T00:42:00.000-08:00

It has been pouring outside.

I cant say the coolness isnt pleasant.

But it makes me dreamy, thinking an awful lot about things i would be better off not thinking about.

Asking myself questions i do not have answers to.

Questions only you can answer. Or maybe not. I don't know myself.

As images and memories flit through my mind, some of it seems almost surreal.

Some makes me feel nice. Some makes me feel weird. Some makes me feel pain. And some just makes me wonder why they even happened in the first place.

I know i have asked you those questions before. I know you tried your best to explain.

Sometimes explaining isnt enough for me. Sometimes i wish things would be different.

Just a little bit different.

I know you're trying.

So am i.

I guess all that's left to do is wait.

Wait as time works it's wonders.

As love numbs all pain.

As you and i walk down the path.

Slowly. Meaningfully. Together.

TaGGeD

2009-01-10T02:34:00.000-08:00

Was tagged by DJ and Joshua....

But since Joshua already did one about DJ i'll do this in honour of him =D

Whoever who gets tagged has to write 10 things about the person who tagged him/her:

1. Name's Joshua Wong

2. He was, and still is in the same class with me

3. He plays Dota

4. He blogs

5. He is good in chinese, unlike me

6. He can sing real well. I just found out xp

7. He joins ISCF at school

8. He's pretty blur and always goes "huh?" when teachers call on him

9. He doesnt have a handphone so he's bloody hard to contact

10. He got straight A's for PMR

The person who got tagged has to write 10 things about himself/herself:

1. I am Hannah

2. I am currently sick of school cuz im seperated from most of my friends.

3. I love sleeping

4. I am nuts =p

5. I suck at many things

6. I talk wayyy too much

7. I miss Allan so much. Thanks alot for leaving us =(

8. I am currently craving McFlurry =F

9. I am so not looking forward to AddMaths and Physics =S

10. I am retarded xp

At the end you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names:

1. Karen

2. Aizat

3. Lilian

4. Samuel *update la*

5. to 10. Whoever. Don't know who to tag already

To you xp

2009-01-02T05:34:00.000-08:00

To that somebody who i knew since i was a kid...

To that somebody who i went to school with for some odd 9 years...

To that somebody who i carpooled with to tuition long ago...

To that somebody who i visited during Chinese New Year and played firecrackers together...

To that somebody who i competed with in class...

To that somebody who was always so nice to talk to...

To that somebody who i could tell my secrets to...

To that somebody who i actually LIKE telling my secrets to...

To that somebody who was always there to listen to my problems...

To that somebody who i trust...

To that somebody who knew the freaking retarded side of me yet loved me for who i am...

To that somebody who plays the guitar so damn well that i feel demoralized in music....

To that somebody who i disturbed all year round but yet tolerated it all...

To that somebody whose face alone can tell a million stories...

To that somebody who i had so much fun with...

To that somebody who left an impact in my life...

To that somebody who i love and will dearly be missed by all when gone...

I just want to say thanks for being such a great friend...

Thanks for being around....

Thanks for being you...

We love you <3

MeMories =p

2008-12-31T04:22:00.000-08:00

The end of another year, leaving bittersweet memories and one changed person

This year i have grown so much in so many ways and experienced so many things...

I...

Got good results in my PMR and praise God for that. Also extending a big thank you to my parents, relatives, teachers and friends.

Lost a love one through death. May God bring my Grandpa into His home in heaven =)

Experienced God's love and His presence in my life. Cried like never before for i finally know how it feels to be loved and called God's daughter. He helped me forgive those who have hurt me and let go of the pain that was making me such a depressing person to be with. =p

Been an emo person. Cried and found life meaningless and wrote emo poems. Like this one...

The day my world shattered
The day my heart was broken
The day happiness was taken away
The day my tears showered down like rain
The day i finally hit reality
The day i felt betrayed
The day excruciating pain struck me
The day overwhelming sadness felt suffocating
The day i had to remind myself to breathe
The day i lost the will to live
The day my hope crumbled away
The day i was lost of words to say
The day you left.

If you ever read this, i want to tell you i understand why you did what you did. Peace =D

Debated with my teammates and friends. Had loads of fun and experienced sweet victory...

And got this trophies...

Praise the LoRd !!!

Had a great 15th birthday filled with love and lotsa gifts =D

And also lotsa gifts for Christmas...

Thanks everyone. Love you guys.

Fell in love with hot vampires and cute guys =p

How i wish i was Bella xp

And to the cute guy i love, hugs and kisses =D

Went to Damai with my friends and camwhored a whole lot =p

Had a great year with all my friends, especially my besties and my babe xp. Thanks y'all for being around.

And had fun, cut classes, pissed people off, been a huge retard, and learnt the art of loving, striving to love just like Jesus =D

Happy New Year.