When i was five, my mother told me that happiness is the key to life.

When i went to school, they gave me an assignment about what i wanted to be when i grow up.

I answered "Happy"

They said i didnt understand the assignment. I told them they didnt understand life.

random update

Joke:

My friend texted me asking what is IDK..

I texted her back saying "I Dont Know"

Then not long after that i received a text saying "Omg nobody knows".

Lol

on and on.

I know i have abandoned the blog for...very very very longgg...

Anyways, life's been bitchin..

And it goes on and on and on..

Btw, today's a monday...

Only 4 more days to go.

Before its saturday again :D

trip.

Went on a disasterous trip to Bau last saturday..

*Shudders*

We were stuck at some unknown place, our bus fell into a ditch..

We waited for more than an hour for the lorry that was supposed to pull up the bus..

It didnt managed to and just drove off =.=

Then the manager of the bus company came to inspect his bus and scolded the bus driver withour even caring about the condition of the kids..

It was raining heavily and only celcom lines could work..

It was like being stranded on some deserted place, cold and dirty..

Moral of the story: Never go to places you do not know beforehand. SHEESH

i wonder..

I wonder..

Is it more painful to know that something bad is awaiting you behind that closed door, or spend a lifetime wondering what to expect?

Is it more torturous to be surrounded by people you loath or be the lone being alive?

Is it worse to know when you're going to die or await and dread that very day, not knowing when it will be?

Is it better to know all the thoughts of people around you, good and bad, or rather not know them, but wonder everyday what people think of you?

Is it better to lash out and express your anger and risk quarreling, or bottling your emotions up and swallowing them in?

Is it more painful to love and be hurt, scarred for life, or never finding true love and living happily?

Is it easier to be pretty but hated or ugly but not drawing envy from others?

Is it enough to just be me, or be the person everyone wants me to be?

Just some random thoughts and unanswered questions..

cherub.

Anyways, so long since i updated..

Exams have passed..

Life's good so far.

Addicted to the CHERUB series..

Story book about a group of kids spies.

Its weird but i kinda miss exams. HAHA.

grew up.

These few days, i grew up.

To know people around me better.

And to know what i should do from now on.

moot.

So Green Road did not win the mooting competition...

Its kinda disappointing though...

We forgot to hand in our summary to the judge and went "oh shit" simultaneously when we saw our opponents hand in theirs...

Anyways, at least there was nice food during the dinner..

and, something random...

I find that being silent, we hear alot better =]

screwed up

You taught me more about the world..


Because you're the perfect example of how screwed up the world can be

happy Easter =]

Today's Easter..

Didnt eat any Easter eggs though..

I did eat two half boiled eggs this morning, but i guess that doesnt count..

Went to Ta Kiong in search of those yummy choc ones but couldnt find any T.T

Anyways, remember how Jesus died for us and rose again.

Thanks to Him, i am who i am today and eternally saved from damnation =]

I submit that im too busy to update =p

And my results are unexpectedly okay.

Thank you God =D

LOL.

I dont mean to sound emo or anything, but sometimes, i just feel pretty lonely..

I mean, everyone is supposed to have someone special in their life who stands by them no matter what right??

Or does stuff like that only appear in fiction and movies?

I mean, Harry Potter has Ron and Hermione..

House have Wilson and Cuddy xp

And Blair has Serena. At least sometimes she does =p

Those special people are the ones who are supposed to support you, never back stab you and hold your hands through the mess you made of your life.

Somehow, i still feel that special someone is missing in my life.

And it is depressing when you read novel after novel about those cheesy friendships.

Do they exist anyway?

congrats ppl =]

SPM results was just released yesterday..

Congrats to those who got good results..

I bet our headmaster must be smiling in his dreams. Haha...

As more pressure is piled up upon me, i wonder if i can really live up to everybody's expectation. And my own as well..

Straight A+ aint easy...

Life's gona be getting tough soon.

a little.

There's a little truth behind every just kidding.

A little curiosity behind every just wondering.

A little knowledge behind every i dont know.

A little emotion behind every i dont care.

blondes

So i have this joke i saw somewhere about dumb blondes.

A blonde goes to best buy.

Blonde: Can i buy this tv?

Employee: No i dont sell to blondes.

Blonde goes and dyes her hair brown.

Blonde goes back to best buy.

Blonde: Can i buy this tv?

Employee: No i dont sell to blondes.

Blonde: How did you know i am blonde????

Employee: Maam, thats a microwave.

LOL

selfish

Sometimes im afraid i'd hurt your feelings..

But yet im selfish..

Im torn between decisions. Unmade. Waiting for me to confront them..

Maybe thats why i sleep alot. To escape reality.

If you promised me it wouldnt hurt, it wouldnt be so hard,

Promise me then. Will you?

pimple

I have a pimple below my nose..

It hurts when i blow my nose or rub it or accidentally scratch it..

LoL.

Like 4 people noticed it and went "Hey, you have a pimple there" *points*

Sheesh xD

Anyways exams are coming up...

God give me determination and the drive to study...

quotes xp

Just some random quotes i find nice xp

CNY

Hmm..

So this has been an ok-ok Chinese New Year..

Didnt play much firecrackers...

Got less angpaos...

But spent more family time...

CANTWAIT for our group visiting. lol.

Happy CNY n VdaY =p

Sometimes there's so much going on in my head that i want to explode...

I doubt my sanity. Seriously.

And then again there's no one to listen.

Nobody will get it.

By the way, Happy Chinese New Year *rawr* and Happy Valentines Day =)

wheeee..

Few more hours before the fireworks begin...

WHHEEEE =p

thanks.

Chinese New Year is coming in like two days..

WHEE =D

And thanks to someone sweet for the gifts.

XoXo to you =p

its true

When you say mean stuff, it actually hurts.

I mean, you know me all too well, all the best things to do.

As they say, a hard blow wont hurt as much as a well aimed one..

Its true.

cant wait cant wait.

I cant wait for Chinese New Year.

Sleeping in and great food.

Cant ask for more than that =)

miss u.

Can i say that i dont regret anything but yet want to change part of the past?

Can i say that i cant stand you but yet i miss you?

I do, you know.

Maybe not you, but who you were..

school sucks.

I wonder how the excitement and anticipation of going to school and meet my friends that i used to have as a kid has now turned into dread.

tell me.

How far can you walk before you're willing to admit you're lost?

How much can you do wrong before you seek help?

How much can it hurt before you let it show?

How hard must you try to keep you composure before you break down?

How much must you do before you can finally be happy again?

Tell me.

5

Tomorrow i shall be in form five.

I shall be in form five tomorrow.

Shudders.

2010 here i come.

The first day of 2010 came too fast..

2009 has been a blur, passing by too fast..

I feel like i havent even managed to achieve anything the whole year long and before i know it, the year is over...

2009

i fell in love

i did NOT flunk add maths xp

i went crazy over lee minho and taylor lautner (who is now single?? =p)

i gained weight =s

i got addicted to facebook

i went to kl to debate xp

i surprised myself in public speaking

i gained some, lost some

i learnt more about myself but got confused as well

i lost part of myself being hurt and disappointed

i met more irritating teachers. urgg..

i camwhored more =p