3 tiny woRds

There're only 3 tiny words i want to say...


I miss yOu.

A LiL' thaNk yOu

Thank you God
For all You've done
Even for us unworthy people
You sent down Your son

He lived a life

Full of sorrow

All so His people

Have a better tomorrow

He loved us so much
That He died for us
Tortured and pained
So we could have life

Hanging on the cross
He called out to You
"Forgive Your people, Father,
For they know not what they do."

Through His sufferings
Our sins are forgiven
So we may walk the path
To His kingdom in heaven

happy chiNese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year people...

=D

Feeling faR from my Lord

Lately, i have been feeling distant from God...


Life has been good, bad and far too routine-like....


Lesser and lesser time is being allocated to God, and much more to stuff of less significance...


It has became so bad that there are nights that i fall asleep before i say Amen....


Yea, that bad...


I remember how good it felt when the Lord touched me, worked His miracles in my life...


How it felt when i experienced His love for me, the love so great that He died for me...


How nothing else mattered anymore...


How the impossible became possible in His name...

I felt like a child in His arms, knowing that He loves me unconditionally....

But nowadays i rarely feel all that anymore...

It's like i just stumble through life without thanking Him enough, without acknowledging all He has done, and still is doing for me...

I want to go back to the heart of worship, and praise Him like never before...

I want Him to be part of every moment of my life, showing me the rights from the wrongs...

I want to experience His undying love everyday...

And for me to love Him as much...

Jesus, bring me back to Your side, for there is where i want to be...

hoPe

There are those times where you feel like someone has let you down, or maybe it was you who were letting yourself down, for wanting too much, hoping too hard and expecting miracles.


Sometimes you feel it would be better if you just didnt care, if it mattered nothing to you.


Sometimes deep inside you already know that it isnt going to happen. You already expected the results.


But yet, when it doesnt happen, you feel crushed.


Disappointed.


This happens to me pretty often, as i continue to hope and long for more.


The saying is true - The harder you hope, the harder you fall.

Hope means you continue to desire and long for something, wanting fulfillment of your expectations, even though you know it might or might not happen.

Hope means you doing your part and counting on the others to do theirs in order to have what you want come true.

For me, now, hope is just praying hard and leaving the rest to the Lord.

Maybe this was the way things was meant to be.

And i just have to trust my Father in heaven to make things right.

Hope, people.

Hope

School is tough

I am soooo busy at school now...

Form 4 is so much different from last year...

I can no longer spend the whole year cutting classes and talking like nobody's business and completely ignoring the teacher talking and yet get good results...

I cant sleep wayyy late at night and sleep in the next day...

I have to deal with tons of homework...




And Add Maths =s



I miss those times...

The times when i could procrastinate and not do all my homework for months at a time...

The times when i could revise a few months of ignored lessons in one night before the exam and yet ace it...

I miss the teachers who are soooo much better than the ones now. Kinder and better at teaching.

I miss all my beloved friends who i am no longer in the same class with....

Where are those days??? Where are those times???

Bring them back...



=(

Pouring. From my heart.

It has been pouring outside.

I cant say the coolness isnt pleasant.

But it makes me dreamy, thinking an awful lot about things i would be better off not thinking about.

Asking myself questions i do not have answers to.

Questions only you can answer. Or maybe not. I don't know myself.

As images and memories flit through my mind, some of it seems almost surreal.

Some makes me feel nice. Some makes me feel weird. Some makes me feel pain. And some just makes me wonder why they even happened in the first place.

I know i have asked you those questions before. I know you tried your best to explain.

Sometimes explaining isnt enough for me. Sometimes i wish things would be different.

Just a little bit different.

I know you're trying.

So am i.

I guess all that's left to do is wait.

Wait as time works it's wonders.

As love numbs all pain.

As you and i walk down the path.

Slowly. Meaningfully. Together.